That is the question.
I haven’t written on here for a little over two weeks, and I’m sorry to those who look forward to my posts or follow my page. I feel like I’ve let you down.
But I’m sure you can understand, especially if you’re a mom, that life happens.
And I’m also sure there are many other mom bloggers who can still find time to sit down and write a post a week or keep up with socially, but I apparently am not one of them, especially when it comes to hard times in the real world.
Now, I’m not one to air out my dirty laundry, so I won’t get into too much detail, but life has been extremely rough for us.
Who knew switching from full time working mom to stay at home mom on one income would be so devastating? I had it in my mind that it would be rough, but I didn’t think it would be that rough, to the point where we have to sometimes choose between rent money and food money.
To say that I’ve learned to get creative with our meals is an understatement.
But it’s worth the sacrifice. I get to be at home raising my daughter and taking care of my household. And I will find a way to keep making it work.
But if you want to know the honest and raw truth of it, I am exhausted.
I thought working full time and being a mom was hard but actually staying at home is even harder.
People don’t give stay at home moms enough credit! I mean the amount of work you have to do to continuously keep everything going and functioning properly is insane!
And the even crazier part is…us stay at home moms don’t get a break. Yep. No breaks after 5 hours. You are on the clock 24/7, catering to every need that everyone in your household needs. Me time? Yeah right… gone, out the window!
Time for a shower? Maybe if you’re lucky enough to squeeze in 5 minutes here or there?
And you can forget about going to the bathroom alone.
I don’t know if it gets easier as the children get older but right now, its pretty much chaos.
But I’m not complaining. I love my baby girl. I will continue to do whatever it takes to keep her thriving and well.
The hard part in truth about this whole situation is pretty much everything else on my plate. I can handle a baby. But I can’t handle everything else life is throwing at me right now. Or it’s not that I can’t, it’s just tough…
I’ve been trying my best to keep up with social media so that I can stay “relevant” enough in the algorithms so that my following can grow and my business can grow with it.
But honestly it’s a huge commitment! You have to be on your game, coming up with interesting posts, posting at the right times, wording things the right way.
And if you’re not doing that, your stuff gets lost in cyberspace. Yep.
I tried the MLM (multi-level-marketing or direct sales) thing. And that again was too much on me and my wallet. I get the idea of it, but honestly, if you’re not a 100% believer in your product, you’re not going to sell much.
I tried my clothing business. And let me tell you, I LOVE designing graphics for different clothing items, but it’s not selling. I don’t know why that is and I’m not going to be a sore loser about it but what can you do? I’ll keep trying to make cool things but it’s obviously not my ticket to making enough to pay our bills.
I get it. People are just as broke. Everybody is selling something. What makes my product any better or different? I’m not sure. I put my heart and soul into it and it’s up to the other person to recognize it. If people like it, then beautiful, if not, that’s ok too.
Anyway, I’m rambling. The point is….
I’m struggling. And maybe it’s time for a break. Just shut down. Reevaluate. Hit refresh. I don’t know.
I can’t keep up and if I try to… I’m going to burn out.
I hate to do this. I really do. And maybe I’ll find the energy some days to pop back on, but I guess consistency was never my strong suit.
At least during tough times.
I need to take care of my family. I need to figure out my marriage. I need to make things better.
And if it mean sacrificing social media for a little while longer then so be it.
Mama with Grace
Ps. Don’t hate me! xxxxx