One year ago, my entire life changed.
I was born…or reborn, I should say… as a mother.
Last year, around this time, I found out I was pregnant, and ever since, nothing in my life has been the same.
As soon as that little life was growing inside me, I felt like part of me was also growing into something new as well. And it really was, because once we become mothers, we are never the same person as we once were.
It has been a whole year of adventure since that moment — dealing with all the changes in my body, growing my beautiful daughter for 9 whole months, expediting a wild range of emotions throughout the entire journey.
And now that she is here and exactly 5 months today, a whole new type of adventure is just beginning.
Every day has been beautiful and she continues to change my life day after day, pushing me to my limits, showing me what areas I need to grow in, expanding my heart more than I thought possible.
I am learning so much from this little human being and I can’t wait to see how much more she shows me. My life has become meaningful for once. I mean it was meaningful before in a way, but also not really because I was living for myself. Now I live for her. Everything I do and everything I am is because of her.
I’m not going to lie, this journey of motherhood is very rough at times, but ultimately rewarding.
If any of you have been following my journey, you would know that I returned to working full time about a month ago. My lack of posting has been due to the fact that I have been having an extremely difficult time balancing my job and my second, more important role, of motherhood.
My daughter still refuses to take a bottle, so currently my husband brings her to my place of work three times a day so that I can feed her. Try getting up at 5am, going in to work, having to juggle feedings three times a day while still doing your job, and in between somehow managing to get in enough to eat each day for your own sake, then coming back home, making dinner, preparing for the next day, and getting a baby to sleep, so that you can do it all again the very next day. Not to mention that she is now not sleeping through the night anymore so I am getting probably about 3 to 4 hours of sleep a night, every night.
It’s rough. Very, very rough. To the point where after a month, my body and brain has decided to shut down little by little. I’m losing too much weight. I’m making too many mistakes. I can barely think straight most days. I feel sick all the time. It’s not good for anyone.
It’s a sign that this is not working.
So. I decided a week ago to put my foot down. I’m not going to live this way anymore. I’m not going to put myself or my daughter or my husband through this stress. There is a better way, and it’s not this!
Mama was Grace was born a year ago, but honestly, she is just getting started today.
I started Mama with Grace as a reminder to myself that the journey of motherhood is hard but rewarding and that we must always give ourselves grace, as God gives each of us daily.
Mama with Grace is also my own personal play on words as Grace is my daughter’s middle name.
Mama with Grace was created as a place of community for all kinds of mothers – ranging from those struggling with postpartum depression, like I am, to those struggling with simply taking care of their babies.
It is a space of no judgement.
It is a space based of honesty, raw truth, and most importantly LOVE.
It is a space of unconditional support, of confiding and uplifting each other in moments we feel weak.
Grace is God’s love in action, so it is my goal to show that love in action to those around me and give grace where it is needed, whether that be to myself or to those close around me.
My eventual goal is to stay at home with my daughter. I know it will take hard work on my part but I am dedicated and motivated. I believe that mothers should be as close as possible to their children; nurturing them, loving them, and giving them the support they need to grow into healthy individuals!
While blogging is one of my passions, so is photography and really, anything creative. I decided to combine my skills and my passion for motherhood to create a clothing line as part of my way of raising funds so that I can find financial freedom and stay at home with my daughter, as right now that is the most important thing to me.
The Mama with Grace collection is a specially curated collection of baby onesies, toddler tees, and even a few designs for adults! All designs were created by me and all photographs featured on the designs were taken by me.
I plan to expand the collection as time goes on, and possibly in the future, take customized orders.
I would greatly appreciate for anyone interested in supporting the Mama with Grace line to check out my site, share it with others, and spread the message of grace.
As God’s Grace is given freely to us, we must also give it freely in return.
All designs can be found on the website and purchases can be made directly from there. You can find the link here.
I plan to donate 10% of all purchases to a different charity each month that is close to my heart!
And this month, I am offering a 10% discount code with the code GRACE10. Expires April 30, 2019!
I truly thank each and everyone of you for your support of following my journey and please don’t hesitate to reach out! I love listening to your stories and sharing mine!
Mama with Grace
Do all things with love – 1 Corinthians 16:14