Life with a newborn, just like the pains of childbirth, is something that they can’t really prepare you for. Sure, you can read all the books, watch YouTube videos, talk to other moms, but until you actually experience it yourself, you really won’t know how to prepare for it.
The constant feedings every 2-3 hours. Sore nipples. Swollen breasts. Leaking all over every shirt you own at the mere cry of your little one. The dirty diapers, one after another, especially right after one has been changed. No routines. No sleep. Or just a few hours every night. Day and night have intertwined and I’ve gotten to the point where I am not sure whether it’s Monday or Thursday.
But I’m not complaining. I love my little girl incredibly. She is my miracle, my joy, my grace. I will take care of her every second of each day.
Yes, it is hard. Yes, it is more than difficult. But it’s ok. I’m letting go of the expectation of being a perfect mother as perfect does not exist. But doing my best does. Giving her all the love I can, does. And that is more than enough.
She is the sweetest thing and I can’t imagine my life without her.
I’ve had moments of freaking out. Adjusting to this new life. Grieving part of my old one at times. I do miss it being just me and my husband but then I remember how amazing this little wonder is and realize it is selfish of me to not want to share this life with her and give her everything. We are a family now. Us against the world.
And it is the best thing ever.
Here’s to savoring every moment to come.. the difficult.. the sweet.. every second is priceless.
My sweet girl is growing by the day. She is two weeks tomorrow and I can’t believe how time has gone by so quickly. She is changing before my eyes.
My love for her seems to grow daily. At some points, I literally stare at her in awe. I almost want to cry because of the joy she brings. Her sweet eyes and heartwarming smile. I can’t believe she’s ours. She is truly a miracle and gift from God. And I am forever grateful for His faithfulness through everything.. blessing us with a healthy pregnancy, birth, and baby girl.
Sorry for the short post…will be trying to update again soon.
Mama with grace